Friday, June 27, 2008

Seasons of Life

On to the fun of this past aunt and uncle had their 50th Wedding Anniversary! So, we traveled to Maggie Valley, NC and it was so wonderful to spend time with my family. It had been several (totally unacceptable of us) years since we had seen my aunt, uncle and cousins. Here are some highlights of the weekend...

My cousin Laura and I

Jonathan Creek in Maggie Valley, NC

Our Cabin

Mommy and Daddy

My aunt, cousin Kim and mommy

My Aunt Cis and Uncle Norman

Charley, and my cousins, Laura and Steve

After having gotten all of the paperwork sent off, we are getting more and more anxious for the call to travel. We know it won't be for several more weeks, but we are praying it won't be longer. We have been staying up late working on the nursery and getting everything ready for John. We are using cloth diapers, and so are washing and organizing everything we'll need. Still don't have pins for the old fashioned kind! We are taking a tip from the Wymans and using a really snazzy diaper called MotherEase. I love them so far even though we're waiting to use them on our little man. ** News Flash ** I am not really saying here the things that are pressing on my mind and, I am going out of my mind with the waiting and the whole thing of knowing that John is our son, but his paperwork still has to go through court and all that that means. I pretend to be fine on the outside, but I'm a wreck on the inside...not eating, getting headaches, feeling anxious. I wake up at night with my eyes wide open, listening to the silence and thinking...what's John doing right now? I want to be there watching all of these firsts. Everyone says, "in God's time," and I know that. But, that doesn't make it easier. I think if I had to say anything to someone in our place I wouldn't be very helpful. I would just say, "Yes. It thoroughly stinks. It is one of the hardest times of your life. And, the ache will only leave when your child is in your arms. So, hang in there and lean on God. Other than that there isn't much you can do to make it any easier." I caught a snip of a quote from In The Name of the King...
: "So this is where we pay for our sins?"
Solana: "No. This is where we pay for our virtues. Sins are more than welcome here."

Worrying. One of this girl's occupational hazards.

1 comment:

fierybutterfly08 said...

I like the new look of your blog! I am praying that your paperwork moves QUICKLY and your anxiousness subsides! I feel you girl! Maybe thinking "it could be worse" might help?!?! At least it's a matter of weeks :O)